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Thursday, July 22, 2010

10 Months

Sometimes, it feels like longer. Sometimes, it feels like yesterday.

I’m really not sure that I have anything to blog about at this point today. I just didn’t want to let the day go by without a nod to my little man. He’s not forgotten. He’ll never be forgotten.

I feel myself going back up the grief roller coaster as his first year comes closer to a close.

I’m just now understanding that Brayden is about to be a big brother before he got the chance to be a little brother. Our lost baby will soon be a middle child. The hole he left in our family and in our hearts will now be felt from all sides. I can’t describe how this makes me feel. I really can’t.

There just are no words for the pain at this point.

I love you, Brayden, and miss you each and every day. Every single day.


  1. I'm thinking of you and Brayden today. Many hugs. :)

  2. It is indescribable. The ups the downs. The amount of emotions I feel each day is amazing. Thinking of you.

  3. Hi there. I just stumbled across your blog through the woven threads of one blog linked to another blog, and so on. I was struck by your 10 month title as our 10 month birth and death anniversary dates of our daughter are coming up (Sept. 25th- 28th, 2009 to be exact). Where does the time go?

    Thinking of you as you remember Brayden.