tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1504119738551109206.post685558511003910301..comments2013-10-02T10:08:58.598-08:00Comments on Living again after the loss of our baby: Now...and Then.Dawn Brownhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12242121580531942102noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1504119738551109206.post-69750007296332297302010-03-28T15:34:29.598-08:002010-03-28T15:34:29.598-08:00I too am afraid. But like Susan, I am able to dis...I too am afraid. But like Susan, I am able to disconnect myself from that fear. I found that it started when I began to see the hope again. I know that when I do get pregnant again I will be anxious all the way through until I'm holding that baby, and then until baby is more grown up. To be honest, I am now more afraid for Ethan, and I check on him at night all the time to see if he is breathing and he is 2 1/2. I don't know if that will ever go away. You are definitely not alone in your feelings. Hugs :)Andreahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04019133323008048190noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1504119738551109206.post-69235344197543640202010-03-28T12:25:04.232-08:002010-03-28T12:25:04.232-08:00Thank you so much for your understanding, ladies. ...Thank you so much for your understanding, ladies. This road we walk on feels never ending...Dawn Brownhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/12242121580531942102noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1504119738551109206.post-48782368373351755542010-03-28T10:34:11.351-08:002010-03-28T10:34:11.351-08:00It would be a lie of omission if I failed to say t...It would be a lie of omission if I failed to say that I am petrified. The only thing that save me is the fact that I have a fabulous 'disconnect' button...although that button occasionally bites me in the ass, too. The disconnect button is what got me through labor and delivery - it allowed me to switch into 'business mode' and hold off on REALLY falling apart until after Gracie was born. That same button has allowed me to focus on the fact that Jeff is now 40 and I am almost 33...and our desire to have 3 living children. I know that if there is any chance of that happening, we needed to get moving. If I didn't have this one simple fact to keep jumping up and down on my disconnect button, I would not be this far. Some days I wish I wasn't this far and we had been able to take a little more time to focus on our healing before jumping right back in, but it's too late to take it back now! :-) I think we are all scared shitless in exactly the same way someone who has been struck by lightening becomes scared to death of thunderstorms.Susanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/14814373587860281157noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1504119738551109206.post-88465621765546877712010-03-27T07:04:41.569-08:002010-03-27T07:04:41.569-08:00Oh Dawn. I stuck standing still in fear as well. I...Oh Dawn. I stuck standing still in fear as well. I undersatnd your fears with all of me. I am beyond terrified to be pregnant again. I have used up every excuse I can find. My husband is more than ready. I hope we both can find some peace, hope & faith so we can continue on our path in life towards the complete family we envision. Sending you huge hugs.Maloryhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15474835486480023516noreply@blogger.com